Friday, December 02, 2011
I guess I was just trying to be honest and I didn't even realize I was doing it until one of them asked me and then said, "No, wait, you're tired." Whoops! Maybe overdoing it a bit on the being honest bit!
But to be honest, I'm not sure I've ever been as consistently tired as these past few months. Some days I take a nap, other days I don't. Those days are usually not as pretty as the nap days.
In the midst of my tired I'm not sure I like myself. When I'm tired, and especially when I've tried to take a nap or go to bed early and been thwarted by things outside of my control (see: 2 children) I get really grouchy.
Eventually I don't like my grouchy self, especially when it makes my children grouchy. I feel like a really bad, really tired mom.
I'm not sure there's a solution to this tired problem, and I'm afraid it's probably only going to get worse for a few years before it gets better (please tell me it will get better!). I am attempting to be more intentional with my time, make lists, and quit procrastinating.
But if you ask me how I'm doing tomorrow? I'll probably still tell you I'm tired. Or at the very least if I don't say it out loud, I'll be saying it in my head!
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